All of my life, Mak, Ayah ,Abang, Kakak and Adik are the one that always shining in my life. How dull my life can be w/t . But now , everything had change, me in the past is not me now, and other in the past is not the same anymore. Kehidupan bila ada Arwah Mak,  Arwah Ayah jauh berbeza dengan kehidupan kite yang sekarang. Masing masing buat haluan sendiri, dah jarang bertegur, tak macam dulu. Sedih , tapi Allah dah merancang yang terbaik. Sebak mula - mula, kakak Solehah pergi dulu, lepastu Ayah last sekali Mak, Memang suddenly Tuhan nak tarik nikmat tu, Ingat, semua milik Allah, Tapi ada sampai satu ketika tak dapat menahan Hujan air mata kerana mereka pergi begitu sahaja. Belum sempat nak tengok semua membesar, belum sempat nak bagi Mak Ayah tengok orang berjaya, ada keluarga. Perasaan cemburu itu, sepastinya ada, bila tengok orang lain mengadu dengan Mak Ayah, keluar sama- sama. Sometimes, i salahkan diri jugak, whymasa punye lam tuhan bagi 16 Tahun ,i tak cherish untuk jaga dorang betul betul. I memang tekad lepas Mak dengan Ayah tak de, i kene jaga Naim, i just feel its not unfair, die just a small innocence boy and i see how much heart broken he is. I just cannot stand. For the past 6 Month , he just became like invisible person, never talk to someone, never eat , always in the room praying for Mak Ayah. Die dari segemok gemok Alam ,jadi kurus secipit , He totally became like another person. I always think that, time aq membesar Mak Ayah sentiasa ada disamping aq, tapi Naim membesar macamman, whos gonna take care of here. I memang jadi super duper caring and clingy toward him. Even when i work, if i had a break, i would go home even its far away. I always want to make sure that he doesnt feel lonely.But now , i ynag selalu duduk bilik sensorang. Now he's going to University in Accounting courses, feel sad that he far apart , and i dont know what will happen to my Eld brother ,how he going to cope with the situation. He also had a scar in his heart where nobody know, after the all those incident, heart broken, im pretty sure ,he afraid of people sometimes, where ever he goes ,other always ask about the same thing. Hahaha,,but serve u dude, sape suh degil x dengar ckp parent. i shouldnt laugh, cause its a matter of life. Remember how had it was to take care of Ahmad at First because he is an Autism boy. He doesnt know how to speak,picky about food and had terrible tantrum. Its such a miracle to see him standing here now, acting like a normal person. At first when he see rice, he will vomit, he doesnt know how to speak then he just point it out. And he super duper hyper active. ingat tak cik jannah kene kejar kau satu dewan kenduri kawin tuh. Ponat tau . Dengan Opah pagi pagi macam singa menjerit paksa Ahmad suh pegi sekolah./ Kalau dulu, cik nana setiap hari kene angkat Ahmad pegi tandas. lepas tuh mula la drama die menangis meraung. Jenuh la nak nyanyi lagu setiap pagi nak semata mata nak alih perhatian supaya x nagis tu, Punyelah buat lawak bodoh. aq pon dah jadi macam orang gile. Cik nana paling geram bile Ahmad berak merata rata, dalam longkang , dalam teksi. Ahmad ni lembut hatinye. tengok cerite orang kene cubit sikit, menagis,kuat emo lah dulu. Sekarang pon same kacau sikit, cakap tak nak kawan ,mulalah menangis. ......Nanti sambung esok ade exam ADS 465.